And Somehow So Is Mine — Pincher Grasp Revisited

and somehow so is mine

July 16, 2025

I’m becoming more delicate with my days.  
More present in the small things.  
Less reactive. Less rushed.  

I didn’t believe I could be more patient  
than I already was.  
But here I am.  
Waiting longer.  
Moving slower.  
Letting more be.  

I’m learning how to hold a life.  
His, yes,  
but also mine.  

I’m learning how to be a kid.  
I don’t remember what it felt like.  
I was just a kid.  
Now I notice the moments that slip by.  
Now I try to stay inside them.  

I’m learning how to be a father.  
Not in the ways I was taught,  
but in the ways I wish I had been.  
In the ways I want to teach Malik.  

I’m learning how to hold things differently.  
Toys.  
Toddler.  
Baggage.  
I’m learning how to pick up moments,  
not just objects.  
To grasp what matters.